I have to say that I’m not normally nervous performing. I really look forward to it and the rush of doing bondage with clover on stage.
London was the first time I’ve really felt anything other than excited. Nervous is probably not the right word though. Certainly feeling an edge that I hadn’t before though.
I pretty much put this down to the people I knew would be watching. Osada Steve, Hajime Kinoko, Kazami Ranki etc. from Japan and friends from the UK.
We had no concrete plan for the performance, just an idea about how to start and a rough idea of the finish. Everything in between being done on the fly. I think wracking is a good word for it. It wasn’t flawless but we got through.
Once it was finished I can’t describe the feelings. Everyone was very kind in their comments. Kinoko describing it as “Very sadistic” and “Hot” was so great. Learning via interpreter that Kazami Ranki liked the performance was another incredible thrill. And finally Osada Steve liking the show and very generously giving me a few tips to improve on the final day was a great bonus for us. He also praised Clover very much as a model and commented on her strength. She makes me very proud.